I appreciate you, Anya

I mean it. More than you probably think. I View you with my legally blind eyes. In ways my words alone cannot describe. the definition of joy gets practiced in my interactions with you. It is impressive the ability you have to just, on your own make life worth living. To make things so, happy. Even when you yourself are going through hardship. The way you always hold yourself. It is unreal, you experience it with as much grace as you are beautiful. And that is a high bar. I don't know how to describe it well but. You Inspire me, In a lot of ways. But it can be put that, you Inspire me to be better. You inspire me to achieve more. Truly, I believe you deserve the best. Biased my opinion is. Its fine.

For all the things I try to do for you. I feel bad for how selfishly I do them. I do them cuz doing them makes me happy. Doing nice things for you, makes me so happy. I am sorry if my selfish behaviour ever got out of hand. I try my best to have, a pinch of restraint. You have been nothing but wonderful to me and so friendly. I almost feel like I am dreaming and that I do not deserver what I am getting.

And I often get scared. Of messing up, of losing you. in any way shape or form, or for any reason internal or external. God Knows I face a lot of external friction but it never stops me and never well. At least that is what I tell myself. I do what I do, for me, regardless of what the other party does. and ill stop doing what I wanna do, when I decide, I don't want to.

Or so I lie to myself/ HAHAHAHA.

May you have an amazing year ahead! For all the happiness you allowed me to experience. I am grateful. Its honestly crazy how much we have done, experiences, and that's us going light. I feel like I could do it again and more. But maybe that's man's greed. I like what I got. I love what I experienced and got. I cant express it well enough into words.

As a wise superman once said. I love you, I am proud of you. You are special. And those I all mean to you Anya. May your life bring joy onto you in a similar manner to what you do. May you lead an honest, successful and cute life worthy of a person like you. Hopefully you can find peace and the ability to be content with yourself regardless of where and how you are. for what is better than a clear and sound mind. I really wish the best for you Anya. for all you have done, that I know of, and maybe that I do not know of.

I assume you are good with others <3 and lucky them to experience you. Keep shining Anya. You truly do burn bright and warm those around you. Just never forget to take care of yourself.